Last night I went to Sparkled(skateing rink) w/ Courtney and then we walked down to Ingles and it was FREEZING and raining and we just walked around for a while then she called Jerstin and he came then we beat up the machine cuz it took my fucking money. Oh well i got it back lol.. Then we got these little balls out of those 25 cent machines and i lost mine(so sad :*( } Then Jerstin stuck Courtneys down his pants how nice.
School sucks as usual. I found out my friend Tania's sister died yesterday I feel so bad for her. She always talked about her and I dont know what I can do for her becasue im not supposed to know. But I also feel really bad for what i did to Jeff yesterday. I was getting so sick of him and I couldnt take it anymore so when he tried tot alk to me on the computer I told him i didnt wanna tlak to him so he kept instant messaging me and id ignore him. And he thinks its cus the other night I yelled at him fo tlaking about me to Ashley. But thats not it AT ALL!! Im sick of him hes always like i miss you and telling me he likes me and I dotn know i kinda like him telling me that but also I cant stand it at the same time and when ever I think about him I get all pissed and annoyed and crap. God I dotn understand this all i hate it! Then he called me when i was at sparkled and I hung up on him. Besides I wouldnt ahve been able to hear him to loud lots of music going on.. Uhh I swear i cant take this anymore everything in my life sucks so much.. Last night Courtney told me she worries about me a lot cuz I dotn really tell her anything and theres one thing I can see she could worrie about but im not gonna say what it is but i dont like people to worrie or feel sorrie for me.
Damn I have a lot of free time and its sad. I baley go out w/ friedns and I was supposed to go to the mall w/ Courts, Jerstin, and Alan today and my mom changed her mind uhh she just loves to make my life a living hell. Then tomorrow im supposed to go w/ them again and my parents are being pissy i cant take it aHhh! Uhh latley i love to go to school to get away from everyone because then I can ignore everyone and do my own little thing but sometimes i want to be around my friends. My emotions have goen crazya nd i dont like it i can be happy one minute then the rest of the day im all depressed always sad! half the time i dotn even know why. I gotta go my parents and sis are being a bitch see I never have time to do anything i cant even write everything in here cuz my sis always reads it uhh i just want something for myself every once in a while!